Waiting... This is extremely difficult for me. My husband is quite possibly the most patient person I know. I, clearly, am the opposite. Today the doctors began preparing us for the day they will send Elise home. Initially, the thought of this is exciting. However it might not be as incredible as it sounds because if she cannot feed on her own yet, they would be sending her home with the ng tube in her nose. We would have to be trained on how to insert and remove it, care for it, etc. While I am quite confident that we are capable of mastering these tasks, I do not want her to come home to a mini hospital only to have to leave a few times a week for doctors visits.
My point of all of this is to say that a) I need to be patient and b) we truly need your prayers that Elise will start to show some feeding cues soon and learn to bottle/breast feed.
She has improved elsewhere so I keep telling myself it will happen in time. But when the doctors and nurses start talking about getting us comfortable with feeding tubes, a little part of me starts to panic. Then I hear the song Everlasting God by Lincoln Brewster come on my Pandora. A little boy reads this scripture at the end and I am reminded once again that she is in God's hands. I am reminded to wait upon the Lord. Desperately trying to wait...
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